One of my biggest insights during the Whiteboard Session week was dealing with my idea of what commitment means...
Before my Whiteboard Session with Allegra I was either doing my work or not doing it (having fun, seeing friends, enjoying my summer etc.) I wasn't feeling terrible, but I was feeling like I was reaching this steady point with work and friends where it felt important, safe and scary to include art back into my life in a similar way that it had been when I was in graduate school and committed to my artwork -- it felt like an activity as important (if not more so) than the activity of making money and surviving.
I worried that I didn’t have enough time for it but ultimately decided that I want to be able to fit things besides work into my life even when I am busy and that this would be good practice.
One of my biggest insights during the Whiteboard Session week was dealing with my idea of what commitment means -- how it really has such a negative context in my brain and relates to being afraid to be bored or fear of not knowing what to do when I’m not working on money making projects. Confronting fear of working on project where I am the boss (art boss) and that it may fail in some way.
Tangibly, I made some real connections with people, added images of my art to instagram, talked more confidently about my own art practice, read more, purchased art books and materials (investment!). I spent more time looking out the window instead of looking at youtube.
As I result of this work I have much more clarity and permission to take space for non work related activities.
I loved the vox messages so much and they really were helpful in a way I think I wasn't expecting. I’m not super great at accepting help or asking for it and it was really a perfect tool in addition to the content.